This blog features portions of my not yet published poems.

why write?

I have to write what I hear in my head, what I dream in my sleep, what my bones ache to express.

My poems tell stories of strength, love, regret, disobedience, loss, hope, redemption, or whatever whispers.

—Cindy B. Stevens

Longleaf Press publication

A Path to Freedom –
A North Carolina Anthology in Honor of Military Veterans
two of my poems are included in this Anthology:
"drip"
“no return war”
November 2024.

My first collection of poetry, Naked, is available at:

https://mainstreetragbookstore.com/product/naked-cindy-stevens/


This collection is also available at two local bookstores:

Purple Crow Books, Hillsborough, NC

The Regulator Bookshop, Durham, NC



More of my poems appear in:

The Phoenix, Issues 60 and 61, (Pheiffer University Literary Journal)
Heron Clan VI, VII, and VIII, (Katherine James Books)

25 April 2020

snow

Some lines from “snow”:


blood washed my chalk line

I love speed



highway hum

roads sleet slick

I sneeze

wheel jerks back over yellow line

damn that monster


© Cindy B. Stevens
30 August 2017

#speed #highway #monster #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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19 April 2020

Sunday isn't Sunday


Here’s part of a poem I just started, "Sunday isn’t Sunday":

Sunday afternoon breathes Saturday night
its chest rises
falls
breath like Cortland apples
its mouth full of Easter peeps

© 18 April 2020
Cindy B. Stevens

#Sunday #hangover #Easter #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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13 April 2020

somebody else


Two stanzas from “somebody else”:

I don’t know I need a savior
I’m too much commotion
my turmoil overcrowded

I’m bone-weary
I don’t know I need to see
can I be delivered from me?

© 21 September 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#savior #turmoil #weary #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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07 April 2020

writing in caves

Here are three lines from my short poem, “writing in caves”:


I like my cave
I helped build this cave
I’m afraid to come out of my cave

© 25 August 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#cave #damp #echo #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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01 April 2020

my Damascus

I enjoyed creating and fleshing out “my Damascus”.  My friend, Jim Adams, blacksmith and artist, helped clarify the blacksmithing terms I wanted to use.  Here are two stanzas:


my whole body harmonizes with D minor dross embedded in my feet
I can’t scrape it off my soles or
gouge it out

I want to shed slag from my veins
I need forgiveness everyday
but if my flesh
is a specter in my memory
am I still forgiven?

© 27 April 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#dross #slag #forge #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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26 March 2020

giving thanks

Sharing the last two stanzas from “giving thanks”:

for wood walks
music
stories
dance
quiet

for hugs
friends
tears
family
laughter
community

© 24 November 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#music #laughter #friends #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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20 March 2020

glass shadow

Two stanzas from “glass shadow”:

sometimes it’s blindfolded
intoxicated on a ballet stage
other times, it’s a brandished claymore

it flays my flesh
appears aloof, walls no one
sees, copes with day
torment, misery
at night, it spins in a disco ball head
it’s all I have

© 21 December 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#glass #fear #diplomat #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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14 March 2020

tragedy divined

Sharing the first stanza of “tragedy divined”, a short poem:

my tragedies crave to cloak
hide
submerge me
my tragedies want to inhibit me

© 2 December 2019
Cindy B. Stevens


#tragedy #divine #emotion #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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08 March 2020

holy hell

This poem came from images in a graphic dream.  Here are the second, fourth, and eighth stanzas from “holy hell”:

thugs wear children faces
they carry guns under their shirts
knives tucked at ankles
they agitate hostility
spark skirmishes
explode malevolence

they don’t know their nightmare has my face
until they turn the street corner
my gun is just for looks
I hold it loosely in my bloody fingers
from a fight already won

maybe I should take that trip to heaven
walk out the kitchen door
click the latch
sip whisky with my friends
Lucifer will join us
he’ll remember I don’t like whisky
he’ll fix a cup of tea for me instead
with sugar, cream
cookies, crackers

© 29 November 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#holy #hell #tea #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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02 March 2020

the pancake house

Sharing the last stanza from “the pancake house”:

nice people greet me by name at the Pancake House
they warm my boysenberry syrup
bring me extra sausages
sometimes crispy bacon
they remind me to take my purse when I leave

© 21 September 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#special #breakfast #pancakes #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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25 February 2020

things I think about while comatose

This 14 stanza poem, “things I think about while comatose”, is about things I think about while comatose.  Here are stanzas one, four, six, and thirteen:

a hospital is worse than a bad neighborhood
a hospital is a bad neighborhood
vampires aren’t always devastatingly good looking
I try to bruise my garlic clove heart to keep them away from my blue pipes
they hemorrhage like Susquehanna and Allegheny Rivers bleed into the Bay and Gulf
~~~
I don’t ask my 5th grade bus-stop friend why she shaves her eyebrows
my morning screams wake me
but nobody hears
I see smoke
flames
but nobody sees
the inside of a guitar case resembles a coffin
plush like this bed
I know that fire isn’t real
but it looks really
real
~~~
I sit on a swing
watch the sky electrify the woods
hear air growl
break boulders
when I die
I’ll return
to my baseball cards clothes-pinned to my bicycle spokes
~~~
I still don’t know how long I’ve been here
I should end this
I can’t move
can’t stay
can’t leave
I only breathe

© 2 December 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#comatose #scream #coffin #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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19 February 2020

ghost lady

The first and last stanzas of “ghost lady”:


yesterday
she was a rickshaw
dragged through the city
her over-burdened wheels splayed
pebbled street-cracked spokes


tomorrow
she’ll stare as people pose
tomorrow
she’ll be stoned
tomorrow
her sisters will make her a statue
where rickshaws pass

© 29 November 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#ghost #crowd #statue #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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13 February 2020

no one knows

Here’s the third stanza of “no one knows”, a Pantoum poem, about a secret lover.  Sort of dark, don’t you think?
 
I discover his deceit
I can get away with murder
no one knows he has me
I point and pull the trigger

© 2 March 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#murder #lover #love #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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07 February 2020

table grace


Here are a few lines from “table grace”:

I miss my favorite meal Mom used to make
I want pork chops
and cauliflower, a cheese-dripped wrinkled brain
now that Mom’s in Afghanistan, Aunt Sally tends our garden

when the house is quiet, I’m just a scared little girl
I know I’m the only one awake
most nights, I listen to the cuckoo clock strike
ten, eleven, twelve
I think it’s 8:30 tomorrow morning in Kabul
one o’clock my morning is the last I remember

© 31 May 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#Afghanistan #scared #clock #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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01 February 2020

Simon says



I’d like to share the eighth stanza of my ten stanza poem, “Simon says”:

Simon’s sister saw her psychiatrist this morning and was told she isn’t any better
Simon’s sister tells her psychiatrist:
there’s this one fence post
it stands by itself
not another fence post near but it
has barbed wire wrapped around it like
it used to connect
like
there used to be a fence

© 13 December 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#fence #barbed #brother #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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26 January 2020

my whisper

The last stanza of “my whisper”:

if my spirit touches me

will I
feel
its
whisper?

© 2 March 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#voices #whisper #spirit #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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20 January 2020

I raise my hand

“I raise my hand” was a difficult one to write.  Here are the second and third stanzas:

we sang Just As I Am
the preacher said, “all heads bow, all eyes close”
asked for sinners to raise hands for prayer
I didn’t want to raise mine
I worried somebody would peek
and know
I’m a sinner
 
but I was afraid to not raise it
because the preacher said
that if a sinner left
had an accident
and died
the sinner’d be lost
forever

© 2 March 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#sinner #afraid #fear #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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14 January 2020

lipstick and pretty shoes

Here’s the first stanza of “lipstick and pretty shoes”:


I think god’s a diatonic harmonica player
with one harmonica, god can change mouth shape and
change keys
doesn’t want my lipstick on the harp, so god never
lets me play

© 8 December 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#Lipstick #Heels #Harmonica #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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08 January 2020

my water in your veins

Here are the first and last stanzas of “my water in your veins”:

will it take a sip of courage, tawny liquid gliding down my throat
to stand in front of you
bare my obstinate bones
confess myself
ask you to forgive?

wrap my carcass in your arms
breathe my water through your veins
return it to me with a whisper
me
dead
I flicker
I flame

© 5 April 2019
Cindy B. Stevens

#whisky #water #whisper #AmWriting #BeWriting #BookLove #Bookworm #Dream #IGpoet #IGpoetry #IloveWriting #Inspiration #LoveWriting #Poet #PoetLife #Poetry #PoetryBlog #PoetryLover #Reading #Write #WriterLife #WritersCommunity #WritersCorner #WritersNetwork #WritersOfIG #WritersOfInstagram #Writing #Wordsmith #AmEditing #NC

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